The Streak Edge Binge Cycle

Back in my problematic porn use days, I would go on streaks and then eventually relapse. After going a period of time without relapse, I'd think to myself "well I have already messed up now". The next thought would be along the lines of "fuck it" and I'd end up binging and edging into a world of sexual content.

I'd finally stop and feel distraught. Despair would cloud all rational thinking and I'd feel confused, anxious, and alone. It was a tough time for me.

Nowadays, I understand the addicted part of the mind very well and as such I totally get how I'd end up in such a desolate, horrible place. The addicted part of the mind wants one thing - for you to engage in compulsive behaviour. If you act on the desire once, you want to engage in the compulsive behaviour more. This is why the "relapse is part of recovery" rhetoric is so detrimental for those wanting lasting freedom. If you keep going on streaks and then eventually relapsing and binging on porn, you may be doing yourself some serious harm. I know I did. Having learned and applied the Beyond Compulsion method, taught to me by Mari Paulus, I'm now out of the porn addiction. I have a very different perspective on edging and binging to porn now than I did back when I was in the struggle myself. If you'd like to learn more about my take on all of this, give my latest YouTube video a listen.