My Experience of Halloween Relapses

In the film Mean Girls, Cady Heron says "Halloween is the one night a year when a girl can dress like a total slut and no other girls can say anything about it..." Culture has changed a lot since Mean Girls came out in 2004. People are rarely thought of as dressing like a "total slut" nowadays.

But, in the past, before learning the Beyond Compulsion method, I know I would usually relapse around Halloween time.

And back then, I probably would have blamed people for dressing like "sluts". Crazy, I know.

For years, I let the addicted part of the mind (APOTM) convince me that it was okay to look at sexual content... as long as it wasn't on a porn site. And so I would scroll and search and explore social media looking at countless women dressed up wearing very little clothing during Halloween.

I felt like a victim to the world of social media, especially during Halloween.

But, what is going on externally is never the real problem. What matters is what goes on in our own mind. The truth is that the APOTM will do whatever it can to get you to engage in your compulsive behaviour.

"Oh I am just browsing social media, I am not looking at porn" was one of the ways the APOTM used to get me to engage in compulsivity. Fortunately, I know how to deal with the APOTM now and so this Halloween, I know with 100% certainty I will be continuing to enjoy my life on the straight line. Zero doubt. Don't make the same mistake I used to make.

Don't let the APOTM convince you a behaviour is going to be "okay" with you, by comparing it with another compulsive behaviour.

Watching a "less graphic kind of porn" does not take away the very real consequences of relapsing.