I looked at some sissy stuff

In my porn addiction days, I looked at some weird shit on the internet. Mostly on Instagram and YouTube.

I'd start off with some pretty tame stuff, but then progress into more and more novel, stimulating content.

In the past I felt a lot of shame, anxiety, and desire just talking about the stuff I used to look at. Nowadays, I feel completely comfortable talking about it. I know it was part of the addiction and those desires have now gone.

Most therapists try and figure out WHY people watch a particular genre of porn.

And then there's the people who judge and shame others, thinking the content they are looking at is actually to do with them as a person, rather than considering how addiction works. Me and Mari take a completely non-judgemental, shame-free, direct approach. To be honest, we don't care much about what our clients have looked at. It isn't actually relevant to changing addicted neural pathways.

It is not that we don't care about our clients. We care about our clients a lot and deeply. But, addiction is addiction and the tolerance cycle is the tolerance cycle.

We keep our focus on the solution - helping people stop doing the things people want to stop doing.

All of that shame, all of that frustration, all of that confusion isn't solved through understanding some mythical, secret "why" behind why you look at a certain, particular genre.

In fact, going down the rabbit hole of even trying to understand the "why" can actually be very detrimental and distracting from the real issue and subsequent solution.

To overcome the shame, frustration, and confusion - we focus on helping people stop the behaviour through dealing with compulsive desires correctly and rewiring the brain.

As a straight guy who lives in the North of England, spends times playing and watching football, and is what many would call a classic "lad" it wasn't easy for me to start sharing openly about the specific categories of porn I used to watch.

But, I believe this message is important so I've gone all in on it and have even made a very bright, exciting thumbnail.

In the past, this thumbnail alone would've been "triggering" for me. But, now I realise that "triggers" are not the issue because for as long as you are in addiction, you are going to get triggered either way.

And every time you get triggered and experience urges, you have an opportunity to rewire your brain. Anyway, I will leave it with you. Feel free to give this video a watch and hopefully it can help shift your perspective on things, no matter what sort of content you're looking at right now. It is not the content you want, it is the mind / mood altering experience your brain craves!