Hate yourself during porn addiction?

For years I would really beat myself up over my use of porn. I'd call myself a "failure", a "loser, and at times I'd really despise who I was. I was stuck in a cycle of believing that my porn addiction was connected to my intrinsic "worth" and that it was just who I was as a person. Now, that I'm out of all of that, I can see very clearly what happened. The addicted part of the mind (APOTM) used self-deprecation as a tactic to get me to continue relapsing. The APOTM only wants one thing and it is more likely to get you to watch porn by making you feel bad about yourself than making you feel good about yourself. This is just one of the APOTM's many strategies.

I am not the only person who has struggled with self-hate during porn addiction. Many men go through this. Even guys who on the surface are incredibly "successful". "Successful" strictly star Ore Oduba recently shared his struggle with porn and many successful YouTubers have also done the same. Below is a further analysis of how self-deprecation can keep people stuck. Learn to identify these thoughts patterns and see them not as your rational mind, but as the APOTM.