Life of a Circle Person

For 9 years, I was a circle person. I jumped from strategy to strategy like a kid playing on some monkey bars. It was only a matter of time until the addicted part of the mind would pull me back down into the depths of my porn addiction. It felt like a gravitational pull, but it was not. I had addicted neural pathways and as such - a part of my mind was on a one-way mission to get me to relapse. This part of my mind is what we call the addicted part of the mind (APOTM).

The APOTM wanted me to change my strategy often. This way, it could keep me stuck. So, this is what I did. I would relapse and change my environment or change my habits. I would read a new self-improvement book or watch motivational videos on YouTube. Every time a streak ended, it felt like shame would cripple my body and mnid and I'd be desperate for change. "This is it now, that was the last time. I'm never going to do that again."

But, these temporary, motivational thoughts would soon be replaced by the APOTM coming at me again at full throttle. It wouldn't take long for the APOTM to come back and start telling me "it's okay, everyone does it." or "you can look just once, and then stop yourself" or "you relapsed recently, you may as well do it one more time".

And then I'd go ahead and choose to relapse again. It did not feel like a choice as the APOTM was completely in control. I felt like a puppet on a string. Following this, I'd try again. I'd shift my strategy again and hope for the best. This cycle just went on and on and on. It was exhausting. It was no way to live.

Unfortunately, countless people are now living their lives stuck in a similar cycle.

The APOTM loves keeping people stuck. If you have no method for dealing with the APOTM's specific thoughts, you will likely stay stuck. You will keep jumping from strategy to strategy. You will have no clear, concise approach to dealing with this problem. And you will go round in circles for years. If you wish to overcome porn addiction, it is essential that you learn how to deal with the APOTM and what we call compulsive desires. Once you know exactly how to do this, it is key to stick with this one, singular approach. No more jumping around. You keep things incredibly straightforward and use your one approach to deal with urges, moment by moment. Over time, if you put the work in to deal with urges correctly, your neural pathways will change.

Consistency is key. Do not let the APOTM try and turn you into a circle person.

With the right tools and education, anyone can get on the straight line and stay on it for good. Below is a YouTube video on this if you'd like to learn more.